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Ze xian nian, yi ge ren
(All these years alone)

Feng ye guo, yu ye zuo
(The wind has passed, the rain has gone)

You guo lei, you guo cuo
(There were tears, there were wrongs)

Hai ji de jien chi shen me
(Things we hold dear I still recalled)


Zhen ai guo, chai hui tong
(If you had true love, the you would know)

Hui ji muo, hui hui shou
(There are loneliness, there are goodbyes)

Zhong you meng, zhong you ni
(There are dreams, always there are you)

Zai xin zhong
(In my heart)


Peng you yi shen yi chi zou
(Friends walk this life together)

Nai xie ri zhi bu zhai you
(Those days will not return)

Yi ju hua, yi bei zhi
(One word, one life)

Yi shen ching, yi bei jiu
(A lifetime relationship, a cup of wine)

Peng you bu cheng gu tan gou
(With friends you wont be lonely)

Yi shen peng you, ni hui dong
(Lifelong friend, you will understand)

Hai you shang, hai you tong
(There are wounds, there is pain)

Hai you zou
(Must go our separate ways)

Hai you wo
(Always there is me)

My favourite song :)

Thoughts...

Maybe

Just maybe

A part of loving is

Learning to let go.

Friendship

Made a big mistake

Thinking that you ever care

Said things were meant to give and take

Guess there's nothing much left to share

Friendship is an essence in life

Which were meant to colour your day

By giving the feeling of secure and safe

Like the serene feeling by the ocean bay

I ain't gonna cry

For you can't hurt me no longer

My tears are dry

Means I care for you no longer

I can read you like a book

All of what you say is a waste of time

By the way your look

As sour as lime

You can talk all night

Words ain't gonna hurt me

For I hold on to my choice so tight

Not to care as a better choice for me

I don't care if you were there

You're a big loss leathe

Anytime you're not here

The air is cleaner to breathe

Loner.

I've just realised being alone isn't so bad after all.

Able to make time for myself.

Separating myself from the busy hustle life in a hectic city

To reflect on my action. Past, present, future.

Now, the broken and missing pieces have been put together well.

Even it may not look good as it was before, but at least it's fix into one piece.

Even if it's not a perfect as it was before.

We shouldn't take good happening things for granted.

Or we'll whine for the lost of it

We shouldn't whine for bad happening things as well.

Because we always learn good valuable morals from it, even throught the hard way.

Without learning it throught the hard way, we won't remember about it.

We won't appreciate it.

We won't be able to take it as a motivation in life.

Life is like a maze.

One entrance, one exit.

But branched to so many paths.

It's up to us to take which ambiguos path.

Even we might that the route to the dead end, never give up hope...!

It's never to late to turn back and take the correct path

Which lead you through a tunnel of future bright.

I wonder why am I so poetic and deep-thinking these few days.

Makes me wonder =)

Thursday

Just had my physics quiz. Gonna fail it as usual for I am so un-prepared for it. Played badminton. Never knew Cliff played so rough and bully Vivian somemore XD

Now, I'm here all alone for this coming four days. My roomates are rather active in PBSM (Persatuan Balik Setiap Minggu).



What am I gonna do?



Being poetic.



Being pathetic.



Once I knew a good friend

Who I never thought could never refrain

Now we apart

Life is all about the parcel and part

One who had help me so much

Who I thank so much

For moulding such a tender heart more mature

Your kindness is my nuture

For we are distant now

For a reason which I do not know

Just to let you know

The waves of friendship has it's high and low

It time for me to let you go

My feelings can no longer forge

It's up to you to forget me

But I will never forget you

это всё..!

Latest Update in a new place called Intec. New place, new experience.

This is the picture of my IRS 12 Russian Foundation In Medicine Programme 17 A.

Future doctors. Classmates before, colleaques after.

It has been quite a few months i last updated my blog. Had been quite busy these few months.

I was arranged to be put under the IRS 12 Russian Foundation In Medicine for 14 months by my sponsor in INTEC. 6 years in Russia. Yes, that means I've to learn a new foreign language, Russian.

я люблю изучать русский язык (I love to learn Russian language)

I have to say that the subjects here become harder than how it was in Form 5 and no way, you can't used your Form 5 method study here. It won't work. Also, attending Form 6 classes before coming here makes me understand the subject better towards the beginning. And it gets harder as time passes.

Being here doesn't mean being here academically. For me, coming here is not just to gain knowledge of subjects, but also gaining knowledge in life.

Life isn't a bed of rose

Life is like a wheel, there are ups and downs

Who says life gonna be as easy as ABC?

I shall touch on this no longer further but just to tell you, I learnt slowly to be a more mature person in a hard way. It was never easy for me. Especially for someone like me.

My advice is, if you can get at least one good friend who is willing to stand by your side through out the thick and the thin, you're indeed very blessed. Don't lose such friend. Even though the closest one might always be the one bad mouthing you behind. Chose not to care.

Thoughts

I often close my eyes

And I can see you smile

You reach out for my hand

And I'm woken from my dream

Although your heart is mine

It's hollow inside

I never had your love

And I never will

And every night

I lie awake

Thinking maybe you love me

Like I've always loved you

But how can you love me

Like I loved you when

You can't even look me straight in my eyes

I've never felt this way

To be so in love

To have someone there

Yet feel so alone

Aren't you supposed to be

The one to wipe my tears

The on to say that you would never leave

The waters calm and still

My reflection is there

I see you holding me

But then you disappear

All that is left of you

Is a memory

On that only, exists in my dreams

I don't know what hurts you

But I can feel it too

And it just hurts so much

To know that I can't do a thing

And deep down in my heart

Somehow I just know

That no matter what

I'll always love you

So why am I still here in the rain

...thoughts...

miss you even more dear ♥

2 more days in Kuching